I used to give you the benefit of the doubt, justifying your incompetence by assuming personal insecurity, coming from a disadvantaged background; someone in the deepend that needs to learn how to swim, but too scared and shy to ask for help.
But now I see, the problem is not a lack, but an unhealthy overdose of self-confidence. The insecurities, that I still believe is there, is hidden by an ironic arrogance. What is sad is that the incompetence coupled with arrogance puts you in a very negative light that does not merit patience and loyalty. I still feel sorry for you, because whites colonised your mind and now you colonise your fellow brothers with 'those' tendencies that Westerners ingrained in your mind, thinking you need those to be clever or professional.
Whoever you are, dont pretend, stay true to yourself, your humanity, true to friendships. Or else the very westerners that made you to change will ridicule and reject you for changing. Unless you were able to change 100% and play their game perfectly, but you are obviously not gifted enough to do that, despite your 45k per month.