In not sure if am the one who have a problem or what but lately I've changed a little bit. But lately am short tempered and very sensitive at the same time. Now I always want to be alone and stay alone and have my time just to think but still if I do that I think about my dad a lot that only if he was still alive I would not be suffering this much but at the end and feel like am not appreciating my mom for raising me till now. she never abandon me if she was not working but always there for us. But my dad always ring in my head I don't know I cant forget about him I always want to compare the life am leaving and a life ide live if my dad was still alive instead of accepting that he is gone for good. I always want this to pass but still it does not maybe someone will help. When am around people especially at gym my netball team makes me forgot this but when ever I get back home I think about my dad that feeling comes again and that time I cry and not sleep at night.